School these day is really getting to be more and more tough. I sometime even really do not feel like going to school. People in school make me sick and frustrated. Talking to Mentors, Vice-principal about my problems, at first they seem to care, but then soon i realise they are making empty promises. Now, thing are so bad that i have to be going for Counselling. At first i thought counselling would help, but after counselling. I realised, they are making me think that why i will get so upset, is because of my thinking. It make me wonder, maybe everything is really my fault.

I always thought, its alright that people in school do not understand, so i talk to my parents. But what break my heart most is that even they also do not understand, and yet they are asking me why don't i join the rest and become friends with them, do they not understand that if i were to hang out with them, i will be influence, and i will not take my Diploma seriously, then again it will be MY FAULT..

Since that is the case i have DECIDED to close my door to everyone. Since they already portray they do not understand, i find it pointless to make them understand. My parents did ask me about school but tell me? Since they already don't understand why should i explain more?? I also will stop counselling.

Recently, i am always so deep in my thoughts, that day i even did not realise that was a car behind me. cool right?? Maybe my one person of unhappiest can make more people happy, then i will not mention it to anyone anymore. Smiling to me is not important anymore. But when a smile is needed I will. Especially for my friends.