Term 2.. Week 3.. Wat a rough three weeks.. My class is not getting any better.. Or should i say getting worst at times.. Its hard to study in this enviorment..

Only yesterday, i found out my Darlin Joe will withdraw from Shatec, we are very good friends.. We study hard together.. We do projects hard together, stay up till each other sleep.. We even play super hard together.. Now, we can only play hard together.. Losing my friend Joe was abit too shocking for me.. When my classmate start talking about her to me, i cant control but to shed tears, ever space of school is memories that we had together.. Thou i know i will be able to move on. but losing a friend so close is not a nice feeling at all.. She is and will be the friend i will treasure the most, when i am sad she is there, when i wan to bitch about mentor we will bitch together. when i am happy we will laugh over things together, when she see handsome chef she will go crazy, then we will laugh about it.. thou we will not be able to spend so much time together. i am sure will be the best of friends..

Thinking about school, classmates, mentor, is confusing.. People in school is REALLY BAD... quite a few MENTOR, i wanna strangle them if possible at time, their blood boil cos of my class then my blood boil cos of my CLASSMATES AND MENTORS..

Wat can i do?? i am veri lost and confused now.. i dunno what to do.. i feel i lost abit of my smilies.. sometime when i m alone i realised i am not really smiling.. i smile infront of people but deep down inside there is a stone in me which stop me from smiling happy from my heart.. Will i get that smile back?? i realised i am doing things for people to be happy, but not thinking about if i like it or not.. what can i do?? I want to laugh out loud again.. but how when i have so many stone inside of me.. i tried to throw it away but many still are there..

WHAT CAN I DO?? WHAT CAN I DO?? WHAT CAN I DO??